Come... and Go...

every come has go
does every go have come?

every birth has death
after death i don't have any idea?

can't imagine...
my family...home.....all my friends
can we meet again in other kind of life?

hope...love you all!!!

1st of June 2008

am 26 y.o

if i remember years before i asked what will i be years ahead
one thing for me to be so special - i always got my bday cake and cheerful moments with people around me Thank God!

but...that's not the point. i hope every year i pass that those times i have learned valuable things which put and make me to be a better and better me...

once again, Thank to Allah SWT for give me a chance to learn and grab anythings around and pass me...

Happy Birthday Vie!

Silence

Keep my words in head
Drop my ego down
Freeze my feeling in a cube
Jail my willing in that same space

No act to be shown
No words to be spoken
Am just in silence
Till unlimited times

Being ikhlas

Hard to obey when we got in trouble
Hard to believe when we got a question in mind
Hard to let go when we don't want it far
Hard to accept when all things don't seem match

are we harsh enough?
it's simply to be but it's hard to do
but for sure it helps us a lot
just being ikhlas for all the things we face in our hectic lives

Judgment Day

Two steps I will make through
To become another me in other part of my journey
Difficult, it is…
Probably I’ll be that nice another me
Or unclear another me
But the judgment day has come
And I should choose

Help me God...

"Life o Life...don't smile or cry if the life u live in you don't know...it's only a journey"

Patch by Patch

I don't care about anything
Even if I'm running a little late in the morning
I'm gonna try my best
How many times have I stupidly
Got my hopes up? There are no barriers
That's why I keep trying

If I can't see a blue sky,
Open up my blue umbrella.
Isn't that great? The canvas is mine

If I feel my dreams are dying Hold tight I've got the music in me

Why have I suffered?
Almost the same blows such countless times?
But even so, I'll probably fight again
That is one of life’s mysteries

Satu Bintang di Langit Kelam (a song from Rita Sita Dewi)

Angkasa tanpa pesan merengkuh semakin dalam
Berselimut debu waktu kumenanti cemas

Kau datang dengan sederhana
Satu bintang dilangit kelam
Sinarmu rimba pesona dan kutahu tlah tersesat

Kukejar kau takkan bertepi
Menggapaimu takkan bersambut
Sendiri membendung rasa ini
Sementara kau membeku
Khayalku terbuai jauh
Pelita kecilmu mengalir pelan dan aku terbenam
Redup kilaumu tak mengarah
Jadilah diriku selatan
Namun tak kau sadari hingga kini dan nanti

How Do I breathe?

Caught in the rush time
Can’t seeing u anymore
Who take care of me?
Whom I can lay my head on?

With u I can be free
Like air without dust
Now, how do I breathe?
I got cold in my heart

Java Jazz Festival 2008

Finally....

Gw nonton juga niy. pake jalan kaki dulu pula menuju JJC nya gara-gara macet ga jelas gitu.
Yah terbayar bangeeettt sama Syaharani and Queenfireworks, Park Drive, Glen Fredly, Lee Ritenour ma Bobby Caldwell deh...ketemu beberapa temen sodara juga disana. Hmmm...jadi mikir next year nonton lagi ga yah? wakakaka ;p (Mauuuuu!!!)

Liat deh foto2 gw ma temen2 in the middle of that Java Jazz Festival. Please enjoy!

Just My Wandering

Togetherness we make like a harmony in a song
Separation only a falseto in that melody
Why can't we get in love then

Hate to say what is faith
Fare not fare
We only accept it

Just my wandering?

Thank You

Words

Sight

Sounds

Hearing

Heart

Act
Mistery of the nature

and all that create and influence me as i am now.

I thank You, Allah.

For some reasons, i am so colorful in this world.

My Today-Song

I’ll be Over You – Toto


Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some peoples destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That’s how our love must be
Don’t ask why

It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breaking
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I’ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

There were the nights holding you close
Someday Ill try to forget them
Someday Ill be over you

Can't Wait to watch JJF ^_^

"Ayo, mba qta pesen online sekarang aja." teriak gw ke mba Nov(one of my office mate yang secara musik nyambung secara buku juga nyambung tapie she got more ;p)
Abis itu, langsung deh mba nov buka website javajazz www.javajazzfestival.com nya.
"Teteenggg..." nah mulai deh isi-isi requirement datanya. click then click and last print out deh tuh bukti registration on-linenya...
"asik!!!" dalam hati gw teriak, soalnya dah lama bgt gw pengen nonton niy konser (secara ada Bobby Caldwell, one of Special Show Jazz artist yg lagu2nya dah biasa gw denger gara2 pny keluarga yg doyan bgt ma jazz music sampe kaset lamanya mas Bobby aja masi ada wekekeke).

Cukup lama gw nunggu...9 hari lagi bo! gw ga sabar gini. ngebayangin nerve gw kalo liat live suaranya Bobby dkk. sampe gw jadwalin jam2 berapa aja gw mesti liat mereka show...untung JJF well-organized buanget jadi gw bakal bisa liat jazz musician local jg kyk syaharani, eqoutez, glen, park drive juga...asiiiikkkkk...."Can't wait to watch it!!!"

Yaiyalah dah lumayan tuh harga tiket, dah lama banget pengen, mudah2an JJF ga kayak konser2 musik yang bikin penontonnya mati kayak konser2 musik di Indo gitu deh...
Nonton puas, Nyawa selamat, Amin.

Let's Rock Out Pals! (refered to Mba Nov, Mba Nelly and Ka'Eva)

PS: Big Sorry and Permission bwt Ugo and Gezka
Just this time kok...hehehe Luv u both,dearests !!

a Quotation from Utada Hikaru - COLORS (translation)

If you can't see a blue sky,
open up your blue umbrella.

Isn't that great? The canvas is yours.

If you say you can only paint
Dreamless pictures
How many times must
I paint over the canvas?
A white flag is only raised
When you've given up
I'm a color you don't know now.

Gaizka (my only savior)

...ma...ma...

i love u Gaizka

u are the reason i live

sorry, i can't be a perfect mom for you

but deep inside

love u bunch my dearest, mwah!

"mama!!!" said my cute boy

Good Bye...Dad

never enough time to share

what i want to tell;

the story me and my friends in school,

my cool mark in study, my dreams in the future

and other parts of my life.

i mad with You

why you leave me so early?

You haven't seen my grad smile, my first day in working

even my wedding day 'till Gaizka come to this world

why dad?

only my deepest heart could say that

i will always pray for and dream of you

coz everyday i miss u, Dad

As the times pass

learning and trying to understand

that you cannot be around for a long time

is hard

but just good bye, Dad

Your Love, Care and dedication

to our family

are never forgotten

thanks for many times

...Take a rest...

"Flavor of Life" Utada Hikaru (English Translation)

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
Get undone even after the good bye
A hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
Like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
Because of being unable to just move one more step forward
What’s causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
it sparks no interest in me
even when things do not go the way you want
it doesnt mean you’ve thrown your life away

When asked ‘what’s wrong?’
I answer ‘it’s nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It’s unlike me

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you a lot’ instead of ‘i love you’ sounds more like you
the flavor of life

The period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
I want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to spend it with you




When you say thank you to me,
For some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
Get undone even after the good bye.
A hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

...

“Finally…” I said to myself
At the time we far…only ash of our memories we had…
No tears no pain…No smile no desire…
All had done till last unspoken words.

Back to You

Some reasons….
I get myself turning
Some facts…
I accept myself hurt and cheer
Some things…
I want it back to you
Because some of yours…
I love a lot!

Alien

Sitting alone in a corner of my room
Tears drop one by one like it could not stop
Heart I cannot be lied but it breaks so
Why this flow so uncertainty
Feelings for a thing blur

Break the Chain

How could I?
Chain that bounds me with heart…
Cannot I break
Is it made from steel?
Not of course but it is bound tightly with “something”
Make me breathe deep like I caught in rush water

Clingy

Why we?
No one could answer it …
Just having u in here I ‘m clingy
You and only you
Like nothing else hardly reach me
Don’t care if it sounds pathetic…

Heart

Bring the flower I adore so much
In quite room the blush come in

Hell we drop heaven we make
Were we in love?

Till the chemistry joined
We were …

No bad or good
Just flowing heart we had